bad dream

So i ws feelin totally good no pain no hunger no nothin so light and blurry , every thing was perfect nd then i started thinkin , go further and it would get better , or maybe i should not , it is cool now why take a chance......oh cmon we don't think that much ain goin to kill me neway so lemme try it and i did , 1 2 3 4 and 5 only a bitter taste in the mouth it was so unlike everythin else it was nt making me lighter nor was the place becoming blurry so i thought nthin ws goin to happen , man i m immune to this thing!!! that is cool.....and then sm1 said smthing funny and then i started smiling and nw i can't stop the smile is becoming wider and then i started laughing like i hav never done b4.....And every1 lse ws laughin at me 'cmon man don cry it's goin to be ok' they said....i ws thinkin wtf cmon u assholes i m not crying i m laughin the shit out of me.... or ws i.... nw i am actually cryin but there is no reason to cry , and nw i can't breathe . i hav to stop doin watever i m doin nw , cryin or laughin , i hav to stop listenin to ppl and concentrate on smtin like my breathin or heart beat or smthin .....ok lets do that nw when i try to listen to my heart beat i could just hear them like the beats of a song ....'dude look at this my heart is beating so fast'...... s'ok man it happens ...ok watever..but cmon heart is also basically a muscle or 3 to 4 muscles so if it beats this fast it is goin to get tired real fast.....hmmm....now i know hw heart attack happens.....
god i'ma fuckin die of heart attack , but that is impossible heart won't just stop for psychological reasons u got to hav serious cholestrol trouble or smthin to get a heart attack.....all you hav to do is keep ur calm . calm dwn it is all goin to be fine , and nw i hav a pain in my chest....which side??right???right is cool it is far away from the heart for the heart is in the left side.....oh shit but right and left is relative , may be this left is the other right , holy shit .Now remember which side is the heart , ok it is near your left hand ok so it is cool , no wait a minit the pain is shifting to the left nw , jesus christ , this sucks , it is the kind of pain that i hav never felt b4 , or maybe it is not even pain , no it is not pain , it is fatigue , my muscles 'the heart muscles' are tired nw it is like the feeling u get in ur legs after runnin too long , holy shit , i told u the mucles are going to get tired at some point , nd nw i can't breathe .....y??....pbly it is the law of conservation of energy u know the whole 'energy can be used only at one part of the body at a time' thing , oh yeah that explains it , so i m going to die for sure oh god wt abt all my dreams , fk off this can't be true , that is not what the law of conservation of energy says........it is not even in biology sucker get a grip nw....hmmm...mind is playin games...but that ain hw it is supposed to work all it does is slow everything down make us feel good.but this shit is totally fuckin my mind up , but who says that isn the law of conservation of energy , mind rt....but the mind is playing games with me so i can't trust my mind , oh shit even this thought is cmin frm my mind , i hav to stop depending on my mind, but i am the mind ain i??shit that is so much of thought i feel like vomiting nw,shit it has reached my mouht ,run man, run ,fast......, outta here ok reach the door , open it ,and the toilet is not far away , oh yes i made it thank you god , then i thot abt appu , appu who had to pay 500 rs to his friends to clean the mess he made atleast i don hav to do that , ok nw it is over , my stomach is empty now and i feel much better i turned back every1 is laughing i reached them and told em that i am totally in control and removed the jeans ran back nd vomitted more came back nw i feel good , put my jeans back on and went to bed all is good nw i hav to listen to some good music that is not psychadelic smthing good and happy , ok put u2 , nw everything is back in control no heart probs no nothing everythin is cool........and then i ws asleep